Clown
1:36 AM - Sunday, June 21, 2009
well, here is another poem i created minutes ago. haha.
Clown
I am like a funny clown
Washing away your gloomy frown
Leaving you with a joyful smile
Helping you do an extra mile
But unlike other clowns
I do not have such funny gowns
What I have is a heart of gold
And advices for you to be told
Little did you know
Sometimes I can lose my glow
I can be a gloomy clown
Without a smile but one, big frown
Like a doctor, sometimes weak
Cannot treat himself when sick
Like a barber with a bad hair
Cannot even cut his own hair
I’m a clown that can make you laugh
Especially when times are rough
But I’m a kind of clown that I can’t deny
Can’t make my own lips put up a smile
aftermath.
10:08 PM - Saturday, June 20, 2009
3 words. that... was... FUN!!
by the way, this is the continuation of my earlier post, which was post EK.
well, the "party" started at dianne's house.
the so-called party(haha) was composed of me, dianne, jv, maxine, trisha and alexis.
there are many viands on the dining table to choose from.
i chose kaldereta (which is one of my all time favorites), pineapple and the turkey.
i was surprised by the turkey! haha
it's actually the 1st time that i saw a fried turkey.
i admit, it was kind of scary!
the bone structure of the turkey was much prominent than the chicken,
furthermore, it's harder to bite and chew. and the skin is much thicker too.
it was so big, yet so skinny that i was able to formulate a name, which by the way, made alexis and jv laugh.
i called it the monster cock! LOL
ok so that was it! that was the wonderful lunch. thanks again dianne!
next stop, enchanted kingdom!
well, there aren't as much people as expected.
maybe the majority of them were yesterday, which is a holiday.
by the way, we only paid 250 pesos each(500 original) for our tickets due to the ID thingy.
i enjoyed the rides although the space shuttle was closed (until october, i think..)
i enjoyed anchor's away very much too! (altough jv and maxine don't want to try.. motion sickness perhaps)
the hourse went by fast unnoticeable . we also tried the SRR:X,
but we paid 50 pesos for the entrance fee.
the horror booth was SUPERB!
the props and the crew were genius!
i swear dianne and maxine could have died inside! lol.
all i could hear inside is the two of them screamng their lungs out. while alexis, jv and me are laughing.
trisha, stayed quiet though. (she entered SRR:X before)
what i enjoyed the most was the fireworks display.
too bad i don't have a camera to capture some pics.
all in all, out day ended happily.
enjoyment and joy filled our bodies today!
i can still feel the aftermath of enjoyment!
pre EK
10:14 AM
few hours later and we are heading to enchanted kingdom! c/o dianne haha
anyway, we are supposed to be about 10 people.
but sadly, many of them have their own excuses... AGAIN..
yeah.. again.. no offense, but everyone have a right to become tired of expecting for nothing right? :)
especially if he/she have experienced it again and again.. with the same people!
but i don't mind.. in fact, i'm getting the hang of it! haha.
maybe, they have done it to me a couple of times i'm beginning to get used to it!
well, enough said. whether they really want to attend to or not;
i will just enjoy myself with the others left. haha few of us are left by the way :(
well of course, it would be happier with them!
enough said already, got to prepare for departure!
parti pipol.
12:28 AM - Friday, June 19, 2009
the acquaintance party had just ended. awww....
honestly, i was gloomy earlier today because many of my friends have their own
"excuses" not to attend the party.
although i have to respect their decision, or their parents' decision;
i was still pissed of because i expected us to bond together as one and enjoy
each other's company.
i guessed i spoke too soon. or expected too much. in the end, half of my barkadas
were not able to make it to the party.
their are many things that i expected at the party this year by the way:
first, i expect/want it to become more lively than last year's
second, i want to meet new friends, so that i can overcome my shyness more
third, to be able to bond with my friends, being with them (even doing nothing) can make me happy!
the party was star studded!
(literally) the walls have big,
shiny star decorations all over it
and the shiny REFROSH at the wall to welcome us.
one word came out of my mind...
WOW..
okay, i will skip the boring part where several bands played 3-4 songs each for us.
well, i am not really a fanatic when it comes to bands
especially when they play rock or metal music.
so in our case, i can safely say it was pretty boring for me
so the food was good. it actually reached my expectations
especially on the food part.
the buko pandan and the "gulay" was actually, exquisitely, tasty.
the "gulay" was actually pretty addicting!
there are two events actually in the party.
first is the fashion show, and the other one was speed dating.
i really enjoyed the fashion show! haha.
well, all of us actually have to participate in the fashion show.
by twos, sometimes by threes, others performed it by groups.
i was able to pair up with iriz.
we made a cute pose :P
the other event by the way, is the speed dating.
it is where we "date" for 20 seconds.
the girls have their permanent seats while us, the boys,
will move from one chair to another after 20 seconds.
although, the speed dating was enjoyable, we weren't able to finish it
due to time constraints.
that was, by the way, i expected and wanted the party to be.
to have no extra time rather than a party with ample time
that will leave you staring at blank places.
the party ended with Lucid having a dance number.
well, their number sure increased! the dance floor was dominated by Lucid members
and Lucid members alone!
even though i am shy enough to dance,
enjoyed myself watching them have their showdown.
i love the party!.
i love the way they had organized everything.
i love the way they design the ambiance.
i love the way everybody participated.
this night was one of the best, and one of the most memorable ones.
the night that everybody became friends.
the night when the word "kj" died even for just few hours.
we partied, we enjoyed. we became one.
the speed dating was really amusing for
several reasons.
but one of the reasons i can't seem to forget
is when some of the girls, primarily, freshmen
seem to have one line.
"Hey, you look good"
well........ haha! :P
respect.
9:53 PM - Wednesday, June 17, 2009
nothing much happened today i supposed, except for the super exciting laboratory experiment care of miss nesse! haha.
(i enjoyed using the VOM as ammeter and voltmeter haha!)
anyway, earlier this night, one of my friend gave me a link on youtube.
due to curiosity, i opened the link and it contained a tutorial.
the title reads, "How to view/exploit your friend's private pics"
(the title is not exact, but u can imagine the idea)
at first, i watched the video.
i learned how to do it step-by-step and even visited the hosting site responsible for such act.
well, i can proudly say that i didn't use it to view my friends' private pics.
it was tempting, honestly. but i was able to resist it!
at first, it was hard to decide whether to look at their pictures or not.
so i first analyzed or foresee what will happen if i saw their private photos.
if i decided to view their private photos and saw something that shouldn't be seen by others,
my perception of him/her may change, especially if he/she is my friend.
maybe... just maybe, i will be happy or excited if i am able to view the most
private pictures of my friends, but the consequences of such actions are not worth it.
some ways we do together as a friend can be greatly affected:
the way we will laugh.
the way i will talk to them.
the way i think of them.
the way i look at them straight in the eyes.
will not just be as sincere anymore
i believe each person hides a secret or secrets about himself or herself.
these secrets should not be exploited or even be laughed at.
they deserve their own privacy,
they deserve to be respected
especially if those pictures are not meant for public viewing.
will you be happy if a nude picture of you happened to circulate all over the internet?
1 or 2?
11:48 PM - Tuesday, June 16, 2009
what made me decide to do a blog?
there is an ongoing recruitment fair at school today which keeps me really busy,
which contradicts on how i got the time to have a blog.
currently, i am confused with few things about my life.
i know i am not good at expressing my emotions or doing anything fancy,
so i chose to have an outlet which is writing.
i decided to make a blog instead of wasting paper and ink!
(that's the answer to the question above XD)
well, honestly, i am currently confused about my relationship with my friends.
due to my lack of capability in showing my true emotions,
i am afraid of saying 'no' to them.
but because i know what i lack, i tend to overdo it instead.
(i hope this made sense)
furthermore, we have very much different ideologies, comments, likes and dislikes
that for me made us more united and scattered at the same time.
with them, i do not even know when to say 'no', when to smile, when to be irritated, when to complain, or even when to give comments.
there is always a dilemma in having friends that have strong personalities.
1. to just go with the flow and adapt to what they want.
2. to stand out and don't let their ideas envelope yours
i want to do what i want. i want them to do what i want.
but i also want them to be happy. to do what they want.
they can't be happy by just following me.
i can't be 100% happy by just following them.
but still, i will still choose number 1 rather than 2.
i'd rather go and adapt with them than stand out and make them adapt to me.
because these things
can be the only gift
i can give to my true friends
love
trust
SACRIFICE...
from the time that i set eyes with them
i know that i'll be friends with them
